I wish.. I hope.. I ponder.. So much over it.. This is the day when I saw you once again.. With them.. Or should I say, with her.. I felt it was normal.. For you to hang out with them. I felt perfectly fine..
But what I know was a different story. I heard her picture was in your phone as a display.. I chose to give you the benefit of doubt. But to my avail, things are pointing to the wrong direction.. Time & time, I saw you guys together.. And each time when I saw you, you never fail to look flustered. I know that there's another guy around.. But so what? Yes! "Pearlyn, YOU SHOULDN'T JUMP INTO CONCLUSION" NO "Pearlyn YOU SHOULDN'T PONDER SO MUCH OVER IT, YOU GUYS HAVE BROKEN UP!" - Thats what i always tell myself..
But hey.. I've not move on. I don't wanna add on to your stress.. But right now, you are adding on to mine.. Your so icey attitude towards me is so hard for me to bear. At least, at the very very least.. Tell me, what's on your mind.. Are you in love with her?
I'm so, so afraid that I'll fall into depression.. Till now, I still hope and wish and pray that 1 day you'll come back for me.. That the 3 months is still on. Is our 1 year 3 months relationship over just like that? At this point I feel betrayed by you.. I don't hate you Darling.. I hate myself for loving you.. much too much..
Pearlyn -A passionate bubbly 19 yr old, who loves to love and believes in Love, blissful, chilling, travelling, sorting life out, just like a star,Partying, chilling, music, movies, roller blading, dining, meeting lovely people, gorgeous beach, tuning to the bizarre skyline, SIA flight stewardess, pilots, airports, new experiences, reading, lips, eys, vainty fair, cheesecakes, sputnik sweetheart, freedom, beauty junkie, God, people who love Jesus, New creation church, hillsong united, hillsong london, hillsong australia, sunrise, sunset, spunky sunglasses, lovely hair accessories, vibrant colours, waves, smiles, tears, that 1 man who makes me smile (who??), awesome people. and a girl in waiting to be a Flight Stewardess by the age of 20. Email: fantasygal_luv@hotmail.com
Pearlyn -A passionate bubbly 19 yr old, who loves to love and believes in Love, blissful, chilling, travelling, sorting life out, just like a star,Partying, chilling, music, movies, roller blading, dining, meeting lovely people, gorgeous beach, tuning to the bizarre skyline, SIA flight stewardess, pilots, airports, new experiences, reading, lips, eys, vainty fair, cheesecakes, sputnik sweetheart, freedom, beauty junkie, God, people who love Jesus, New creation church, hillsong united, hillsong london, hillsong australia, sunrise, sunset, spunky sunglasses, lovely hair accessories, vibrant colours, waves, smiles, tears, that 1 man who makes me smile (who??), awesome people. and a girl in waiting to be a Flight Stewardess by the age of 20. Email: fantasygal_luv@hotmail.com 
